Friday, March 25, 2011

Prodigal daughter...*


 Authentic perfection...authentic perception, thats what they do....

Spinning tasteful lies through the innocent ears of a post mortem teen, 
only an "adultic" teen thats what she was. 

She left home chasing "greener grass," looking for "quiet waters," searching for "pastures..." 
so she set her trail ablaze, burned the memories of the past quiet life, the peaceful, Oh how peaceful it was...

She got up on her feet, letting the rain wash her clear of her past achievements and stepped throught to the horizon of mistakes...Mistakes that a prodigal child must make, a rite of passage or so she thought...

blue dress, pretty bows, taunt belt, skinny jeans designer bag, expensive shades...well that was the the new look, a metarmorphosis of persona, a person of sheer insecurity...

She saw no-one but herself, "Pride goes before destruction a haughty spirit before a fall..." thats the girl who she became...proud, obnoxious, inconsiderate, selfish, broken, hurt, insecure, tortured, unconcerned, depressed and tired...

She looks to the mirror and all she sees are the remnants of a beautiful girl...

her mind flashes to the instant it all began...

"Let's go dammit! What are you waiting for?" he called out. 

that was the man she had purposed to love, the man who was gonna show her the way to live, the high life the life where all she had to do was party, and drink all night...

she did all the things mother warned her about, she tried all the things her father told her not to...she left the GOD she had known for a life of misery...."bad company ruins good morals..."

So here she is looking into the memory bank of her mind trying to find a solid plan of life from this point forward...trying to go at it by herself...trying to live by a standard that was socially and morally acceptable in a place of no morals....How does a faithful untainted daughter of GOD decide to live by the standards set by a worldy place....?

Looking into her own eyes she was sad...saddened by the state of emergency she was...bruised soul, broken heart, tortured mind....she was a sinner, and right at that point she felt truly like a sinful sinner...

but when GOD says "never will I live you nor forsake you", HE means every letter.

In her broken mind she couldn't see past the broken tears, always a broken corpse...

GOD is close to the broken hearted and saves the crushed in spirit...

Help was on the way long before trouble began, help was on the way long before sin had taken her down...
See GOD gives sight to the blind even before they ask for it, "ask and it shall be given to you...." but you must first understand that "seek ye first the kingdom of GOD and HIS righteousness and EVERYTHING ELSE will be added to you" that is a definite, "amazing grace how sweet the sound..."

and so when the pre-"adultic" teen felt lost and dead, GOD restored the breathe of life that had dimed in her...giving her reason to smile and praise..." for when the daughter was still a long way of, the father ran and embraced her..."


GOD gave me a hug when i needed it the most...Authentic Love, authentic peace...

A hug when I needed one...:)








We are making a mark!!!*

Friday, March 18, 2011

...Foolish..*

Thank YOU, LORD for another day,

Another breathe i don't deserve but YOU have given freely dear JESUS...

Thank YOU for another moment to be well and have friends, and the understanding YOU have bestowed upon me...

THANK YOU...

LORD, we are foolish.

I am foolish...

We are silly and stupid.

I am silly and stupid...

We are forgetful and un-appreciative,

I am forgetful and un-appreciative...

Inconsiderate and unkind, unfair and uncouth, 

un concerned and insensitive.

FATHER forgive me for i have not been deaf to listen to your healing words.

but LORD, i know you have decreed Jeremiah 29:11, for YOU have called me by name, said that YOU are my friend. JESUS i know that YOU love me with every bit because Psalms 103:12 wrote it...

LORD, with every step i take YOU heard my cry, YOU wiped my tears even when i felt beat....still YOUR loving word says that 1st Corinthians 10:13... 

I know that for one, GOD will never stop showing me 1st Corinthians 13 love.. HE will hold me close to HIS heart for i am Genesis 1:27

so LORD i ask of YOU, to forgive our selfish, idolatry, adultrous self. Forgive my insensitive and unfair behaviour, my noisy self when i cant be silent.. LORD heal your people, teach them and me YOUR love. 

Psalms 23...Heal me beside YOUR quiet pastures, walk with me LORD as i walk through this valley of shadow of death...because i know JESUS, YOU will teach how to trust YOU...

LORD i ask that you forgive us...

JESUS i know i am on the right track...LORD i will not stop because YOU never stopped with me.

I'm not perfect LORD, but i know YOU will use me.. I don't always stop to listen but GOD im praying YOU will teach me how. I know i haven't been giving YOU my all and am so sorry, so JESUS teach me to give my all to YOU.

Philipians 4:6,7 GOD i know YOU will give me and have continually blessed me with that peace...

GOD i pray YOU teach me dilligence, determination, discipline and love being the greatest. 


AND FATHER, FRIEND, i know and trust that YOU are coming back to take me home...

IN JESUS NAME I PRAY, 

AMEN...

Psalms 23...*


HE is making a mark... <3

Thursday, March 10, 2011

"Who am I?"

 Three simply complex words, "who am I?" but a phrase we can barely answer...

Philosophers, Scholars, literature buffs all have meanings and definitions for this phrase, scientist too. But the one person who struggles to find the meaning of this phrase is us...

 "Who am i?"

There's a teenager sitting in her room, painting the white walls with her eyes. She inspires the bland walls with her imagination of what she thinks Monalisa should have looked like. She draws better figures than Picasso's failed art. She has sat there for hours trying to figure out who she is, i mean the literature assignment isn't going to complete itself! But she can't seem to find any description of herself. At 16 you would think she would have figured out atleast abit about herself but all she can come up with is, her name.

"Who am i?"

Seems simple enough for anyone to answer, i mean its just 3 words what else could it be...


 At 35years of age, a succesful career and a wife and kids, a man decides to go for a sex change. He decides to leave his wife of 18years and marry a 21year old girl. And people wonder what is wrong with such men? 

Its simple really, they still don't know who they are....


Here I am, am still trying to figure out a full definition of who i am, but so far this is what i have come to learn:

I am not just my name...

I am not just my country, Kenya...

I am not just my tribe, Kisii...

I am not my friends or a figmented me...

I am NOT a doormat...

I am not forgotten...

but this is what I am;


I am GOD's child...

I am a friend to JESUS...

I am Loved...

I am a forgiven sinner...

I am a seventh-day adventist CHRISTIAN....

I am found...

I am peaceful...

I am a workaholic...

I am not a broken corpse...

I am FREE...

I am HAPPY...

I am cherished...

I am respected...

I am trustworthy...

I am nothing without GOD...

"I can do all things through CHRIST who strengthens me"

"I trust in GOD in all my ways and acknowledge HIM, and JESUS directs my paths..."

I am fun...

I am poised...

I am DEFINETLY BEAUTIFUL....

I am striving to be a great friend like JESUS is to me....

I am faulty...

I am under construction...

I am analytical...

I am quiet...

I am learning...

I am 5:14. “‘You are the light of the
world. A city on a hill cannot be
hidden. Neither do people light
a lamp and put it under a bowl.
Instead they put it on its stand,
and it gives light to everyone in
the house. In the same way, let
your light shine before men, that
they may see your good deeds and
praise your Father in heaven.’” 

“Let them
see your good deeds and praise
your Father in heaven!”

 I am on a mission, to spread the gospel for CHRIST's soon return....

"who am I?" I am still finding out slowly but i thank GOD i have a starting point...

See, when I say i am loved, im not alone...I know many out there need to know they are loved, but I realize my deficiency, i am just human and i can't love the way GOD can love... JESUS loved so much it killed HIM, imagine what HE did and is still doing for you and me...

When we begin to answer the question "who am I?", lets all turn and ask GOD, "who do you want me to be?..."

I am DEFINETLY NOT MY PAST...*


We are making a mark!!!*

Friday, February 11, 2011

Thank you...*

Pass me not O gentle SAVIOUR hear my humble cry....while on others thou art calling, do not pass me....by

And so this week HE has not left me....GOD is with me.... in more ways than i can say...JESUS is with me...every second even in my twisted mind...JESUS is with me..

JESUS thank you... :)

Thank you.... :)



We are making a mark!!!*

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

Hymn 86:

"O LORD my GOD when i in awesome wonder,
Consider all THY works THY hands have made,
i see the stars, i hear the mighty thunder,
THY power throughout the universe display.

Then sings my soul my Saviour GOD to THEE, how great THOU art,
HOW GREAT THOU ART...
Then sings my soul my Saviour GOD to THEE, how great THOU art, HOW GREAT THOU art..."

These word are the melody of my heart...LORD teach me to sing these words to THY honor....

See when GOD decides to lead us, HE won't let go..."HE who began a good work in me will not rest untill it is finished"

GOD has made sure we know that HE won't let us go... "Never will I leave you nor forsake you..."

And that is a promise i have seen in the past week...so ill shout from the rooftops, scream to the world....MY GOD is GREAT....

PRAISE HIM, PRAISE GOD....


We are making a mark!!!*

Sunday, January 30, 2011

trUst...*

JESUS i trust in YOUR promise of Jeremiah 29:11....

Jeremiah 29:11


We are making a mark!!!*

Saturday, January 29, 2011

Rescue...*

JESUS come to my rescue...

LORD, give me words as David...

Let me speak just as Psalms 45:1 says...

Let me see YOUR grace through the marvelous works of YOUR gracious nail punctured hands...Let me understand the love YOU promised me, and know that the words YOU speak are true...

let my heart be tuned to Philippians 4:8 and in my mind speak YOUR peace into, LORD hear my cry, just as David begged for forgiveness and guidance, I pray for the same. Just as Ruth trusted in YOU the Bible that she had "a heart so hidden in YOU, JESUS, may my heart be so hidden in YOU that a man should seek YOU first to find me..."

LORD for i am weak but YOU provided that..."my weakness be made perfect in YOUR unfailing love"
2 Corinthians 12:9....

LORD my prayer is that YOU may be seen through me...everything i do...i live by Galatians 5:22-23, changed because you carried out Ezekiel 11:19, Zechariah 4:6....

LORD, Psalms 40:8 speaks my hearts desires... and i pray that LORD these words may edify another...as it does me,

for YOU said, Psalms 34:9 rings true and we can shout and proclaim to the world Psalms 23:1..."THE SOVEREIGN LORD IS MY SHEPHERD, I SHALL NOT WANT..."

Rescue me LORD...*


We are making a mark!!!*