Saturday, December 11, 2010

Perception Point


There’s a point where all sanity cannot contain a chaotic mess…
…When the sphere of the inner most medulla is always oppressed.
That point when the entire world is crashing in your optical chiasm,
… That’s when all the embers of your miasma
  Become a part of the ashes…of long forgotten dreams….
…dusting away reality from your minds seams…
You begin to take a step in the wrong direction…
… A need to find yourself….find a new addiction…
It’s a miss-conception that by drawing scars…
You can erase the past… and turn them into stars….
… Truth sets you free.
Here’s the truth….
Scars hurt too much
Scars scar the sense of touch…
Scars leave you broken….
Closer to being irreparable and leaving you unspoken….
Simply put….scars….are a story….
It’s the way to write down painful history…
Painlessly in the cranium,
Painfully, with stainless titanium:
Titanium exterior….
Uranium interior.
suuny days ahead..*





We are making a mark!!!*

...a few weeks ago*

....a few weeks ago this was just a plain and simple town girl from back home...

a few weeks ago she didn't know what love was....she didn't know what it meant to have a man in her life...

a few weeks ago...she was undisturbed....a few weeks ago she could go to church without fail...a few weeks ago was a few weeks ago...

when the world was spinning clockwise and time was running in the right direction.....when the earth didn't sleep at 8 and get up at 4pm...to start the day....!!*

So here i am....spinning in the opposite direction wondering why the moon shines during the day...and the sun lulls me to sleep??

Why is it the earth stopped lazing around and started moving so fast...the days get shorter as the nights get longer....

I know the climate has changed....not just in the new area code but in the past few weeks....(everything has changed)....so..

how did i get to this point???

how did i drive myself to this point....where did i loose sight?

a few weeks ago...i was Emma....today who am i?

I still have the name....but where's that girl?

Did she heal? Did she get lost in the midst of the fun and craze....

or did she find herself when she wasn't even looking??

where's that girl?

....where's the girl who listened?

GOD forgive me....for my iniquities....for the wrongs that so oft seem right.....for making it seem okay....

GOD hear me...please...in JESUS name i pray...AMEN.*

not knowing too...hurts*





We are making a mark!!!*